Need my Diet Coke...

I have been off Diet Coke for a few days...Not happy days.  As I predicted I did lose a few pounds of water weight.  Id guess no Diet Coke tomorrow will yeild a few more pounds.  I have tried to quit, but is it really worth it.  Yes, If I quit I will lose a few pounds.  Last time I quit for a while I lost about 12 - 15 pounds, but if I could reach a healthy weight and stay there is an extra 10 pounds worth no Diet Coke.  Probibly is but right now as I sit here craving that sweet calorie free drink with the caffiene kick Im thinking who cares about a few pounds if I am where I should be...  Justification like that is what got me here 50 pounds over weight.  Fifty sounds like a lot but 4 months ago that number was over 70 pounds. 

I am off my feel good juice for the week, and my goal is for the month, but we will see once the holiday stress kicks in.  I want to get to the point that I drink the stuff once in a while and not more often then water. 

Weigh in is on tuesday...and I might weigh in the same as last month... We will see.

December is usualy a hard month, but the Hubby has a work party and I want to look and feel great for it.  Dec 12th is the date and that is the motivation to get me through until then. 

Loss of complete control...

It was all so good.  All of it needed to be tried.  I didnt take to much of one thing, I took to many things.  We had enough food to feed a small army for the ten of us.  I ate more then I did in a long time.  I am up 5 pounds, Yes up 5 pounds from last months weigh in.  I am seriously hoping that 4 of that is water retention from eating crap and drinking an entier 2L of Diet Coke all by my self.  I will hit the eliptical machine hard today and eat right from now on.  Leftovers are dead to me. 

My goal for weigh in day is 155.  9 pounds lower then today...and 4 pounds lower then last month.  I know that isnt amazing loss but I blew it for the month.  Please let a lot of it be water weight!  Please!

Thanksgiving! Mmm...Urgh.

I love to eat and that has been my biggest challenge.  I am trying to learn to taste things and not eat every thing in sight.  Tomorrow we will have the big day at out home with both sides of our family.  10 people at our home bringing food and fun.  I am trying not to gain more then I lost this month.  I hit a point where the weight isnt comming off as fast as it was.  I am getting more definition and muscle mass but the scale does not show it.  My pants are fitting better then ever and I went bra shopping at a normal store.  That right there is worth it all.  Today I need to make pies, a lot of pies.  Cherry, apple cranberry, french silk, and blueberry.  Yes we are over doing it!  Thats how we do things here.  Anyone want to eat all my leftovers or put a lock on my fridge for me?

Ive been giving myself " Calorie Hugs ".

I will admit its been a rough week or really a rough few weeks.  Ive been so down and out of things.  My exercise has been barely existant, and my eating, well Ive been eating my way through the day.  I dont even know if I have been hungary this week at all, I have not let my self get there.  Seconds were not the problem, it was the thirds and finishing off the kids treats that killed me.  I bought my Hubby a cinnamon roll the size of my head and maybe his too.  I ate my half.  I made enchiladas for the family for my night out with the girls and then I came home and ate it, twice. 

We are having Thanksgiving at my house this year.  I was excited at first.  We usualy do just the four of us and miss everyone but it was to hard to rotate families.  We get all of them at our house and due to the huge size of our combined families we will be feeding 10 people.  Yes, both his family and mine add up to 10 people and that includes spouses and siblings.  I have been stressing a bit about cleaning things that have been out of sight and out of mind for a while.  We decorated for Christmas already and basicaly it looks like a bomb has dropped at our house. 

My dear Hubby who is ususaly a great support to me had a bad day at work.  He walked in the door and yelled "  What do you do all day? ".  I knew what I did all day and so I was upset to say the least.  Things got said that shouldnt have been said.  His final remark was " You are just not a good housekeeper!  ".  I try, I really do.  I get hung up on cleaning things until it was really clean and so there are dishes in the sink but the bathroom looks like the day we bought the house.  He knew it was a button of mine and I cant believe he pushed it.  Tonight I am going out with the girls to eat at Applebees and to see New Moon.  I have no will power to eat right so I doubt I will.  I spend so much time taking care of them and neglecting me.

I know this was long and drawn out.  Basicaly I think yesterday changed who I am.  My house will be cleaned different, the food in our house will be different and I will take care of me more then ever.  I cant dedicate 100% of myself to them because I have nothing left for me. 

Blah blah blah.  I feel a bit better now.  We will see who I wake up to be tomorrow. 

Watching Progress.

I was looking at an old notebook.  I was trying to lose weight, big surprise, and so I wrote my weight and goals to change them,  On August 18, 2009, One day before my birthday so special lunch, dinner, and cake galore, I weighed in at 179.  I weighed my self this morning at 162 (monthy weight gain so I think 3or 4  pounds are water weight).  3 short months ago to now.  I feel better, I look better and I am getting more done.  My attitude has changed about life, Im a better Mom and friend to my kids, And for some strange reason my dear Hubby has beed getting things done around the house- first time in 10 years.  Im not sure if it is realted but I will take it.  He has been working out too and has lost 25 pounds, Im catching up and fast!

Stepping it up!

I used to do step aerobics and I loved it but I quit when I got married, had kids and got to busy to take care of me.  When I quit putting my self as a top priority I quickly gained weight, and got depressed.  I bought the wii fit when it first came out and I thought I would love it like I loved step aerobics.  The Wii Fit is maybe an inch off the ground and while you are steping you never go up and down.  They now have 3 inch blocks made for the Wii Fit that pump up the work out.  I did 30 minutes last night and I can feel in my thighs today.  I only wish they had a step aerobics workout game to mix it up. 

I am still looking for a bunch of new exercises to keep it all new and motivating and I think that this is one I will love.  Its like playing and working at the same time. 

If I could bottle motivation! (November Goals)

I feel good right now.  I feel like I can take over the world.  If I could feel this way all month I could beat my goals and them some! 

Im not sure if it is smart to set my goals for the month when I am feeling so good but we will see how it turns out. 

I started the month at about 160.  I want to be at 150 by the end of the month (Id feel good about 8 pounds for a 5% loss but shoot for the moon right...)
I want to track the water I am drinking and make sure I am getting my 8 glasses.  I often wonder if I am eating something when I am really just needing a drink, plus a drink before dinner will fill me up a little more. 
I want to try one new vegi a week that I have never tried before- Deep fried need no apply. 
I also want to try some new exercises.  I think that was part of my problem last month.  I do the same thing everyday and once in a while toss something else in.  Maybe a new exercise a twice a week.  Any ideas?